We each have these critical moments that we reach in our lives. Sometimes, for some, it occurs earlier than later. For others...it takes years on years to reach that place. But we all reach that place. We all come to a single point where we know, within the deepest part of our hearts, that things must change. This want for change is like nothing you've experienced before. There truly is a different sort of energy to it. There's a different feeling to it altogether.
You have to do the most frightening thing there's - face your greatest nightmare...yourself.
My moment showed up in late 2011 which wasn't by choice. I can remember standing in that apartment, hearing words that I would not forget, and literally watching myself from above crumble. I modified everything about myself in that minute. I compromised. I did everything and anything I could. In the final analysis, I'll always remember that deep burning feeling of turning to ashes. It was not the instant that did it, no, that was just the match. It was the whole stacking up of dry leaves and hay from years of neglect...and that little match was everything in took to spark something that would redefine me from that moment on.
That was only the beginning of everything, seven days later, it reached its bottom. Absolutely dead rock bottom. I made a request to the heavens in that pitch black dark room, it fortunately wasn't granted, and I awakened the following day looking at a crumbled landscape...with the understanding that I could take the time to reconstruct my whole world the way that I wanted it.
But I would need to face myself.
Just as importantly, I would need to burn everything down that I ever supported myself with. I would learn how to support myself for once, to not blame everything on everybody else, to be fully responsible for my entire life, and to finally let everything that was locked up and caged in me out. It had to all come out.
You see, when you build walls to keep things out, you also build walls to keep the wonderful things in you from ever reaching anybody. Love was walled in...hurt was walled out. Pain was kept away from me...joy remained hidden covered under the dust. I ran from fear...so my certainty and grounding evaded my life like the plague. I had to tear everything down. I had to tear my ego down. I had to tear down my projections. I had to rip apart everything and start over completely.
I did that. I started writing. I started being honest about what was going on with me. I built everything back, stone by stone on a different foundation. My backbone and my heart would be the dense iron place from which I'd create.
What I realized on the way was this - those places you are afraid to go, here's where your nightmare lives. It crawls around in that space. It's this thick dark seeping sort of discomfort that will frighten you to death. It frightens you as you think that if you go there you will get caught in it and drown. The truth of the matter is, that's where your strength is. There's unthinkable amounts of strength in going there. Just as there is strength in great and hearty faith and light, there's equal unbelievable amounts of strength in going to that scary place that ravishes your heart with fear...and yet when you go through those places you develop this type of belief in yourself that's beyond confidence. It's the sort of feeling that you know that everything around you could be demolished, and you most definitely could build it all back no matter the situation.
Power.
Real power.
"Take from me everything world, and I am going to come back and build it back better...and regardless of how you challenge me...I will absolutely continue to shine. "
Face your nightmare. Face your fears. Do not ever be frightened to let everything go for the opportunity to build it back better. Need love in your life? You're going to have to let go of everything on the opposite end that has been obstructing you. You are going to have to dive deep ...down into the depths of your soul, lantern in hand, without the conquering blade. No armor. No weapon. No effort to rise up above it.
You must go in defenseless and exposed.
You'll come out. You will cry, suffer, and hurt...but you'll come out. I'd never tell you to go anywhere that you couldn't actually come out of. I promise you, this is the one place you must go for everything to release. To build something new, to begin living the grandest type of life you could really ever live...you have to go here. The shadows. The depths. The darkness.
I can assure you...this place, is where life begins.
You have to do the most frightening thing there's - face your greatest nightmare...yourself.
My moment showed up in late 2011 which wasn't by choice. I can remember standing in that apartment, hearing words that I would not forget, and literally watching myself from above crumble. I modified everything about myself in that minute. I compromised. I did everything and anything I could. In the final analysis, I'll always remember that deep burning feeling of turning to ashes. It was not the instant that did it, no, that was just the match. It was the whole stacking up of dry leaves and hay from years of neglect...and that little match was everything in took to spark something that would redefine me from that moment on.
That was only the beginning of everything, seven days later, it reached its bottom. Absolutely dead rock bottom. I made a request to the heavens in that pitch black dark room, it fortunately wasn't granted, and I awakened the following day looking at a crumbled landscape...with the understanding that I could take the time to reconstruct my whole world the way that I wanted it.
But I would need to face myself.
Just as importantly, I would need to burn everything down that I ever supported myself with. I would learn how to support myself for once, to not blame everything on everybody else, to be fully responsible for my entire life, and to finally let everything that was locked up and caged in me out. It had to all come out.
You see, when you build walls to keep things out, you also build walls to keep the wonderful things in you from ever reaching anybody. Love was walled in...hurt was walled out. Pain was kept away from me...joy remained hidden covered under the dust. I ran from fear...so my certainty and grounding evaded my life like the plague. I had to tear everything down. I had to tear my ego down. I had to tear down my projections. I had to rip apart everything and start over completely.
I did that. I started writing. I started being honest about what was going on with me. I built everything back, stone by stone on a different foundation. My backbone and my heart would be the dense iron place from which I'd create.
What I realized on the way was this - those places you are afraid to go, here's where your nightmare lives. It crawls around in that space. It's this thick dark seeping sort of discomfort that will frighten you to death. It frightens you as you think that if you go there you will get caught in it and drown. The truth of the matter is, that's where your strength is. There's unthinkable amounts of strength in going there. Just as there is strength in great and hearty faith and light, there's equal unbelievable amounts of strength in going to that scary place that ravishes your heart with fear...and yet when you go through those places you develop this type of belief in yourself that's beyond confidence. It's the sort of feeling that you know that everything around you could be demolished, and you most definitely could build it all back no matter the situation.
Power.
Real power.
"Take from me everything world, and I am going to come back and build it back better...and regardless of how you challenge me...I will absolutely continue to shine. "
Face your nightmare. Face your fears. Do not ever be frightened to let everything go for the opportunity to build it back better. Need love in your life? You're going to have to let go of everything on the opposite end that has been obstructing you. You are going to have to dive deep ...down into the depths of your soul, lantern in hand, without the conquering blade. No armor. No weapon. No effort to rise up above it.
You must go in defenseless and exposed.
You'll come out. You will cry, suffer, and hurt...but you'll come out. I'd never tell you to go anywhere that you couldn't actually come out of. I promise you, this is the one place you must go for everything to release. To build something new, to begin living the grandest type of life you could really ever live...you have to go here. The shadows. The depths. The darkness.
I can assure you...this place, is where life begins.
About the Author:
Evan Sanders is the author of The Words Of Encouragement, a website dedicated to bringing the best quotes, motivational content on the web, and blogs all to one place. Need some more motivation and encouragement to keep moving forward? Dig into these life is too short quotes for a little bit of perspective on why you should drag yourself out of the darkness.
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